Wednesday, January 25, 2006

One of those Challenging Day

Sometimes in life..SH!T HAPPEN.
This is an example of those SH!T that happen in my life.

*Breath in...breath out*
*Breath in...breath out*
*Breath in...breath out*
*Breath in...breath out*
*Breath in...breath out*

LIFE - Des'ree

Ooh, Yeah
Oh yeah
Oh Life
Oh Life

I'm afraid of the dark
Especially when I'm in the park
When there's no one else around
Oh I get the shivers
I don't wanna see a ghost
It's the sight that I fear most
I'd rather have a piece of toast
Watch the evening news

Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life

I'm a superstitious girl
I'm the worst in the world
Never walk under ladders
I keep a rabbits' tail
I'll take you up on a dare
Anytime, anywhere
Name the place, I'll be there
Bungee jumping, I don't care

Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life

So after all's said and done
I know I'm not the only one
Life indeed can be fun
If you really want to
Sometimes living out your dreams
Ain't as easy as it seems

You wanna fly around the world
In a beautiful balloon

Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Life, oh life
Oh life, oh life
Oh life, oh life..

Monday, January 23, 2006

Keep Dancing !!

Having inspiration from Ellen blog about Indian and the beauty of it, i want to share a story about indian also.

The story begin with an Indian culture (which is true or not, i don't really know) about rain summoning dance.It's a ceremonial dance to summon rain (duh).

Once every five years there is a big meeting between all the indian tribe that nominate who is the best shaman (witch doctor,elder who lead the dance and incatation) who can summon rain from each and every dance they do.

There was one tribe that can always invoke rain from their summoning dance, and the great shaman get interviewed by other tribes shaman.

"what is the secret in your dance ? is it the incatation ? the move ? the sacrifice ? what is it ?"

The Great Shaman :"tell me the chance of raining from all your dance ?"

"It's fifty-fifty chance that every dance we perform can invoke rain"

The Great Shaman then explain them about their method, all of them listen very carefully and taking note about it.After the great shaman finished explaining all the audience murmuring and mumbling about the method."why, its the same method we use in all the tribe, there is nothing special about the method"

"O great Shaman please tell us the secret, there must be some secret that you did not tell us about the ceremony".

Finally with whisper the great shaman say "Gather around and i will tell you the secret"

The crowd gather around closer to hear the "GREAT SECRET OF 100% GUARANTEE RAIN DANCING CEREMONY"

After the crowd gather closer the great shaman whisper to them.

"The secret of our dancing is : WE KEEP DANCING UNTIL THE RAIN FALL"

Sometimes we give up too early.

Thomas alpha Edison fail 1000 times to invent a light bulb.

Wright Brother's fail a dozen times to create the first flying machine.

Colonel Sanders get turn down 1008 times for his Friend Chicken his late 60s.

All the Great People fail more then us the mediocre.

So next time you try something...KEEP DANCING UNTIL the RAIN fall !!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006



You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you...
My affection is real.
My love is real.
The moon represents my heart.

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you...
My affection does not waver,
My love will not change.
The moon represents my heart.

* Just one soft kiss
is enough to move my heart.
A period of time when our affection was deep,
Has made me miss you until now.

* You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you.

* ** Go think about it.
Go and have a look [at the moon],
The moon represents my heart.

This is really a great love song.if you want to hear it you can download it here.
But you must have a Windows media player 9 or above.It’s in .wma extention.
Theresa teng (A great chinesse singer) Sing this song.


ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen
wo de qing ye zhen
wo de ai ye zhen
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen
wo de qing bu yi
wo de ai bu bian
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

* qing qing de yi ge wen
yi jin da dong wo de xin
shen shen de yi duan qing
jiao wo si nian dao ru jin

* ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen

* ** ni qu xiang yi xiang
ni qu kan yi kan
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Going where the wind blows

Someone said life is for the taking
Here I am with my hand out waiting for a ride
I've been living on my great expectations
What good is it when I'm stranded here
And the world just passess by

Where are the signs to help me get out of this place

If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows

Here I sit halfway to somewhere
Thinking about what's in front of me and
what I left behind
On my own, supposed to be so easy
Is this what I've been after
Or have I lost my mind

Maybe this is my chance coming to take me away

If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows

Here I am walking naked through the world
Taking up space, society's child
Make room for me, make room for me,
make room for me
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool
Going where the wind blows
By : Mr Big

Have you ever feel like once in your life time you sure about what you do ? Recently i am feeling that way too.When i made a decission about it, all the things that i think will come to be my obstacle in the journey seems to vanish.I pray to God that i really want this thig to be happen in my life,and it is.Well, at least it feels so real and clear.
Guess when i say that life is for the taking,i feel like all the world try to help me doing it.I never know how or why but it’s just happen.I do what i can do and such,the making of the new reality.

Friday, January 13, 2006


This song dedicated to a girl somewhere.If you read this might be you.

I, get a little tongue twisted
Every time I talk to you
When I see you

And I'm so glad that you just missed it
The way I stared
To memorize your face

To kiss you in my mind
Love you all the time

'Cause when I close my eyes
I still can see your smile
It's bright enough to light my life
Out of my darkest hour
Please believe it's true
When I tell you I love you

I've taken too many chances
Searching for the truth in love
That's in my heart

Tell me if I made the wrong advances
Tell me if I've made you feel ashamed
'Cause I know I have to do this
Would you hold my hand right through it

'Cause when I close my eyes
I still can see your smile
It's bright enough to light my life
Out of my darkest hour
Please, believe it's true
When I tell you I love you

I had to let you know
Just what would happen
Yes, I had to let
You know the truth
I know I've got to do this
Would you hold my hand right through it
Would you

'Cause when I close my eyes
I still can see your smile
It's bright enough to light my life
Out of my darkest hour

Please believe it's true
When I tell you I love you

I know now this
Is true when I
Tell you I love you


This is all time favorite song of mine.It really represent the state i am feeling about somebody...somehow.
Being in love is something we thought....or feel ?
Because usually i hear people say "I think i'm in love with you" is it really a process of thinking instead of feeling ?
Thing's are that love is the urge to be with it,or a constant changes of feeling that put you on the endless loop of roller coaster ride.How can you feel sick and sobber at the same time ?
If only....Being in love is so simple.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

You do the impossible things

Lately all my posting is not deep enough, well at least that's what my friend tell me.
I wanna share with you my recent thought base on my experience,i just build a kind of relationship with God.I feel that me and Her is quite a teammates.
I often pray to God to be my team.To support here is the deal i made with Him.



I think it's fair, because sometimes i'll do the impossible myself.But recent experience told me that if you really want it, you too can do what i think "the impossible" at the first place.

Of course God (as any other teammates) always trying to slacking of in the shadow of "you are my greatest creation" thingy.but, when She do it, She will do it in a blink.

It's kinda suprise that i could build such a relationship,He the guy afterall so that's what i always talk to Him like that.

Sometimes i wonder how close i am with my maker (parents and God),the answer is so differ from time to time, it depends on how my mood are.Sometimes i think i change,but sometimes i think they change.But, no matter is the answer i find that changes is unavoidable.Love that constant is not love, love must change as any creation as God's.

Well i guess i'm still enjoying this kind of relationship ^_^.
I must tell you that i don't like sucking up on anybody,and that include God.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006


Tidak terasa akhirnya sampai juga di Tahun yang baru lagi.Seperti biasa gue selalu menerbitkan kaleidoskop hidup gue selama satu tahun ini untuk mencoba memberikan sneak and peek untuk temen2 gue yang pengen tau apa saja yang seorang Sondi alami selama tahun 2005.
I mind you, bahwa apa yang gue tulis adalah apa yang gue pikir terhadap apa yang terjadi sama gue...atau fakta-fakta yang terjadi sama gue pada tahun ini, jadi silahkan leave your comment if you have another point of view on that matter which is diffrent than me.
Seperti biasa juga periode akan dibagi tiga per 4 bulan jadi ada awal tahun (Januari-April) , tengah tahun(Mei-Agustus) dan akhir tahun (September – Desember).Perbedaan dari tahun lalu,Dengan adanya kecanggihan teknologi maka sekarang kaleidoskop ini akan diterbitkan di 2 Blog gue Friendster dan Blogger , Kalau udah begini gue kaga perlu mengemail temen-temen gue dengan junk mail hahahahahah..ada yang ngerasa ini junk mail ga yah ?
Well, minimal yang kaga mau tau kaga usah baca dan kaga dapet email tahun ini...atau gue emailin ajah linknya hahahahahah...sama ajah yah.Minimal cuman satu baris kalimat.
Kalau gitu mari kita mulai perjalanan ini,semoga gue bisa inget semua hal-hal penting yang terjadi sama gue selama tahun ini.


Semangat tahun baru dibuka dengan  hal yang sangat menyenangkan.
Karena gue punya banyak uang di tabungan hasil dari ngirit dan rejeki nomplok pada bulan November tahun lalu.Menyenangkan juga ngeliat saldo di buku tabungan sekarang.Aman,nyaman dan terus berkembang.
Hehehehehehe...padahal mah kaga gede-gede amat sih...gaji manager juga masih lebih gede...tapi seneng ajah karena itu merupakan perwujudan dari resolusi gue tahun kemaren 2004 bahwa gue pengen punya balance yang bagus di rekening tabungan gue tahun 2005.*buka-buka kaleidoskop 2004*.
Di bulan Febuari gue ketemuan sama temen lama yang ngajakin gue untuk ikutan Choir (koor).Akhirnya gue bisa menyumbang suara gue yang cempreng ini untuk memuji Tuhan,alhasil gue diterima di sana untuk suara tenor (HAH TENOR ?!?).
Mulailah rutinitas latihan tiap hari Rabu jam 7:30 (kadang jam 8 kurang) menjadi bagian dari hidup gue.Nama Choirnya “The Immortal” walaupun kalau ada gue waktu latihan kita (kita? Gue doang kali) lebih mirip “The Immoral” hahahahahahha...but it’s about cheering up the party.Kita servicenya di gereja Theresia menteng Jam 11.00 tiap hari Minggu.Misanya dalam bahasa Inggris karena memang kebanyakan yang hadir adalah expatriate.Lagu-lagu yang kita nyanyikan yah dalam bahasa Inggris juga kalau kaga bahasa latin.
Ga berasa latihan sudah berjalan hampir 3 bulan dan saatnya kita pentas untuk paskah, actually kita dapet malam Paskah (Lent)  dan Jumat agung (Holy Friday ?).Oh iya kalau selesai nyanyi (Lagu penutup) kita bisanya dapat applause dari para pengunjung misa.Seumur2 gue ikutan misa di tempat lain, jarang sekali Choirnya dapet applause.Ini ada sampel lagu - lagu yang bisa di putar di Media Player (karena ext nya .wma) tapi kudu download dulu.Maaf yah mungkin kualitasnya tidak sebagus rekaman dari studio...karena Cuma pake tape recorder semata.


Periode ini diawali dengan di pindahkannya kantor gue ke Pejompongan (Gedung sendiri dan masih baru) yang tadinya ada di Mampang.Karena Logistik adalah Team Pindahan makanya gue juga ikutan, Hari jumat lembur sampe jam 12 malam.Sabtu sampe jam 10 malam, minggu sampe jam 8 malam di bayar...gile bener tuh lemburan gue kenceng banget.Kena sampe 700 rebu untuk upah lembur gue doang.Ha ha ha kalau mikir duitnya sih seneng..tapi kalau mikir kerjanya...mendingan libur di rumah ajah dah kaya yang lain.
Juga di perpanjangnya kontrak gue sebagai karyawan di perusahaan ini dengan kenaikan gaji tentunya yang (duh malu banget nyebutnya).Anyway mayan dah buat ongkos.karena gara2 pindah ke kantor baru ongkos gue naik 3 kali lipat...huaaaaa..gaji hanya naik 10 persen huaaaaaaaa lagi.kok kenaikan BBM tidak naik gaji yah ?? *Garuk-garuk*
Juni-Juli adalah waktu yang paling sangat tidak enak bila engkau berada di bisnis telekomunikasi.Ketegangan ada di mana2 dengan dead line dan segala masalah finansial yang terjadi.Barang-barang material yang belom di kirim dan hal yang kadang kalau di pikir-pikir bisa di selesaikan sama anak kecil kok yah orang gede kaga bisa mecahin yah ?
So cerita gue juga bakalan begitu-begitu ajah padal bulan juni dan juli, kecuali hal yang sangat indah terjadi pada akhir juli...hmmm can’t remember the date though tapi gue inget suasana dan momentnya...waktu itu pas selesai tugas choir tiba-tiba ada yang nyanyi happy birthday,waduh gue semangat banget asik nih pulang gereja bisa makan-makan karena ada yang ulang tahun.Gue ikutan nyanyi kenceng banget..tapi pas bagian “Happy birthday dear.....Sondiiiii ....happy birthday to you “ HUAAAAA...gue kaget ternyata temen choir gue inget sama ultah gue....gue terharu banget,dapet kartu dan kado yang gue pengen banget...”Harry Potter : The half Blood Prince” yang hard Cover.Duhhh Gue bener-bener takjub dan merasa terkesan banget.That is the Birthday i will never forget (that’s why i wrote it in my blog).Agustus is always a Crappy moment for live, nothing so special to hear but i can tell you about the moment i start my diet to make my suit for my sister wedding fit nicely.It really work at the first month but i blew it in the very day i wear it.


Akhir tahun biasanya terjadi rollercoaster in my life...tapi thanks God keliatannya tahun ini lebih banyak gembiranya daripada kaganya...pertama sih gara2 pembagian bonus di kantor Mwahahhaha..ha..ha....mayan daripada bengong.Trus, ada lagi diet gagal karena tiap malam makanannya enak BAH !.Atau gara2 libur lebaran membuat badan serasa di ternak (makan, tidur, maen) banyak duit bikin kita pengen makan makanan enak all the time.Trus ada lagi ngepas jas yang udah bisa di kecilin...akhirnya kekecilan gara-gara napsu makan tak terkendali hhahahahhaha BAH !!.Oh iya gue juga (akhirnya bisa naik pesawat) pergi ke Makassar dan Manado  untuk bikin laporan stock opname homebase.

Sayang kaga foto-foto pemandangannya BAH !! Trus ada lagi pernikahan adik gue nah ini asik banget nihhh...

tuh beberapa fotonya ...maaf kalau kaga jelas, maklum ajah pake kamera HP dan waktu itu suasananya temaram hehehehehe...Love life...duh aneh nih yang satu ini jadi gue rada males juga ngejelasinnya...yang pasti memang bukan fokus utama gue tahun ini, yang datang silahkan yang tidak jadi datang juga kaga apa-apa.Temen-temen..hmmmm Tahun ini temen gue bisa di bilang sangat berarti.
Apalagi dapet kunjungan dari Sukmo...salah satu orang yang suka ngasih gue quote yang aneh-aneh di kaleidoskop gue yang lalu.

The big suprise is Febby istrinya lagi Hamil hmmm...jadi pengen tau keadaan mereka sekarang*mencet-mencet tombol telepon*.

Desember Adalah bulan penuh berkah...kenapa ? Karena THR keluar hahahahah...beu..dan gue semakin dimantapkan bahwa harus punya usaha sendiri karena kalau jadi pegawai terus dengan gaji segitu...diprediksi bakalan cukup untuk nikah (dengan suasana yang mendekati angan-angan gue) ketika umur gue 45 tahun hiiiyyyy...amit-amit.

Well trus ada kesibukan Natal yang sangat asyik...Choir di gereja yang sempet panik karena soundsistemnya error (ternyata masalahnya hanya belom di colok power dan kabel ke speakernya)

Pentas Natal di Bar MAD DOG

Acara Pot luck yang tidak gue hadiri, diganti dengan acara “mo di jodohin karena masih jomblo sama temen nyokap”.Well, that’s a WRAP !


Bila harus mendefinisikan tahun ini dengan satu kalimat maka kalimat itu adalah:
“If you think about it,Dream about it, see it so clearly and you think it is too good to be true but,’hey i think i can try it’  then  it can happen”.


Untuk tahun baru ini gue ga terlalu banyak resolusi, gue belajar bahwa kalau ingin punya kehidupan yang lebih baik gue harus meninggalkan zona kenyamanan gue dan berubah.Gue paham harus “give up something for a while to have that something forever.”

1. Gue pengen membangun usaha sendiri sampai berkembang dan stabil.Cross your finger.

2.  Pengen punya badan lebih sehat (duh udah 3. tahun nih resolusi) masih tetep ajah.Olah raga teratur.
3. Tingkatkan baca buku yang membangun dan positive.

Udah ah cukup 3 ajah dari pada nanti kebanyakan fokusnya susah.Maklum masih pentium I blom bisa multy tasking.