Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Dear Titania Natasha Part 2

I know you feel that you are have all the right to be this way. I know you are angry with her...somehow you even think not to ever forgive her. I know this is not the time to tell you how much she loves you But,let me tell you about your mom For nine month she carry you where ever she go. Hair falling from her head like crazy and doctor said it was hormone Her cheek filled with dimples and zit (you got hysteria while you got only one or two) Her feet swollen like elephant foot. Her back give up on her at the 5th month and i have to rub her back every night She never even speak or complain about you. She look ugly and fat, more than you have could imagine (but i still love her) Why i tell you this ? Because i was there..beside her,when you are not even born She have to fight 10 hour of suffering to bear you into this world. She cry to bear the pain until her tears dry away. She moan like a cattle in the slaughter house...until she have no voice She bleed after gave birth you for more than a liter Why did i tell you this ? Because i was there..the day you were born. She squeeze (literary) her breast to feed you. Bear the pain of her back to carry you until you sleep. Wake up every two hour to keep you well fed even it means she will get a migraine the next morning Sweat all over her body when she bathe you and wash the "why there is so much" bottle Why did i tell you this ? Because i was there....when you still cannot say a single words This words could go on forever... She change your diapers when she was eating..imagine that. you did that not only once my child...you cannot count it with your tiny little finger. She never speak anything bad about you. i only talk about the first year of your life.... If there is something that beats inside you..i bet you with all my ridiculous amount of happiness. That you can have what you have today, simply because she make that happen. Why i tell you this ? Because i was there...watching...and loving her as best as i could. so it could somehow pour out to you..through her. I love you..She love you more.